Post from Kittty · April 30, 2026

Anyway so my grandma passed this morning, my whole family is absolutely disgusting and I’ll probably never talk to them again I’m having a really hard time but I think I’m a little numb right now and I have a lot going on with lawyers finally getting back to me and prepping for my procedure sat and stressed about having to stop all my meds to get my allergy test next week; which is only being done to prove I’m allergic to mold and use as ammo in the case against my landlord.
A lot happening!!! But I haven’t cracked, haven’t given in to anything and haven’t even had any drug cravings even with 0 support, no one to talk to or vent to or be here with me and it’s really fucking hard and lonely I’m not gonna lie
(Today is also 3 weeks exactly since my last use of any substance, and I decided to count that as my sobriety date even tho I hadn’t used my DOC since being in the hospital. I figured no more bs, do it correct and stop everything you wanna stop and THEN start the clock)

I’ve been thinking about it since last week but trying to figure out a tattoo to get for my grandma
I miss my cat and my dog a lot this week and I’m selfishly even more sad that I didn’t get to see them too, because if I had gotten to go see her on home hospice they would have been there
I just wanted to see all of them but trying to maintain that things play out as they’re supposed to

Doing ok, which is all I can ask for rn, and proud of myself. My peers in group today all literally showered me with affection and praise about how they perceive me and I had no idea that’s how I come across bc I always think the worst and have never gotten that approval I guess from my family. It was nice to hear on a super weird and hard day like this and I’m so grateful for my group. It’s such a supportive environment.

This is very long, I don’t care if anyone reads it but thank you for giving me the space to write this to the void. Like I said will be back to real content probably after my procedure this weekend

If you take anything away from this, go tell your family you love them
💖