there are these moments when i suddenly want affection so much. i want someone to be gentle with me, to touch my hair, to make me feel small in a good way. i imagine how nice it would be if i could do something simple to please them. like if they gave me milk from a bowl and all i had to do was make them happy. thats all. i dont need anything big. just to be useful like that and see them satisfied. i dont know why i keep thinking about it but i do.