I’m way past pretending I have control over this anymore... I talk big about eating healthy and getting active, but the truth is this fetish has its hands around me and it’s not letting go. Every night I end up doing the same thing... sprawled out, barely moving, letting the hours slip past while I push myself to stay up until 2 AM just eating. It’s like the urge takes over and dares me to keep going… and I always do.