i did smth that genuinely scared me 🙈

okaaaay so.. while i was awayyy

i also climbed THIS. a ladder into the actual clouds 😭 can u imagine???
me. the girl who gets anxious leaving her room. i looked down once n almost cried 🥀 (that's straight DOWN n nothing under me but air n trees 💀)

i don't even know what made me do it. i think i was just so tired of being scared of everything.. the comments, the door, my own head.. that i wanted to be scared of smth REAL for once. aand smth with a top to reach 🥺

but when i got up there.. idk. smth in me kinda.. like full reset. like all the noise went quiet.. it was just me, the wind n my shaky lil legs hahaha 🙈 i felt brave in a way i didn't know i could feel

they even gave me lil award when i finished.. for not chickening out 🥹 it says "dream bigger, reach higher" on it and now im tearing up every time i'm reading that🥀 keeping it on my shelf forever.. so on the days the mean voice comes back i can look at it n go.. no. u climbed THAT girl. u can handle a comment section 🙈💗 (hopefully it will work haha)

i kept thinking.. why did i need to fly across the world n climb a mountain to finally breathe 😭 but sometimes u just gotta unplug and do the terrifying thing to remember ur stronger than the voice in ur head 🥀

and because it's still men's mental health month.. this is ur reminder too 🥺 u don't have to climb a mountain or do anything risky lol.. but plss find ur version of resetting. talk to someone. take the trip. do the brave thing. take care of that head of urs if you have to please.. it's the only one u get 💗

and honestly?? climbing that thing gave me a lil taste for being brave 🙈 it got me inspired and i'm thinking abt doing smth on here i've been WAAY too scared to try.. 👀 a certain adventurer if u may say🥺 still talking myself into it buuut.. baby steps right?? 🙈💗

im back n im a lil braver now 🥺 and i missed you sm, time to get back to my normal posting pace again.. maybe even post a lil more often.. just for me. n for u 🥺