hi guys… I can’t believe I’m even typing this right now, my heart is racing 💕 it’s been such a long time, and so much happened in my life while I was away.

I needed to take a step back to focus on myself, on my health, on dreams I wanted to bring to life outside of OF. it took me a while… but now I feel so full, so happy, and honestly, I missed this space more than I thought.

I know I disappeared suddenly, and I’m sorry for cuttingoff our connection like that. those of you who were close to me know what I’ve been going through, and I appreciate you more than words.

right now I can’t physically read every single message — there are so many, it’s overwhelming. but I promise I’ll start going through them in the next days. tonight, I just want to be here, to talk to you on Live Stream, to share what’s been going on in my life, and to hear from you too.

if you ever wondered “how’s Nicole doing?”… well, here I am 🙈 let’s just hang out, talk, and enjoy this first night back together