Hello 🩷🥰
I wanted to talk to you about the future of this OF. I really appreciate your support - just being here makes such a difference. However I’ve sadly never really managed to built this place up the way I wanted to. Part of that was due to my declining health making it harder to work until I had to stop completely. It was also hard finding a format that pleased everyone. My content was already split into 2 main eras: the 2013-17 stuff where I was much smaller and did more general belly and gas stuff, and the 2021-25 era where I was bigger, ballooned to supersize and concentrated mostly on weight gain content.
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I opened OF as a place to share all the dirtier stuff, old and new, that I couldn’t share on my main platform. But I’ve always received three very different kind of requests (demands in some cases!)
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“share all your old stuff, you were so much hotter then!”
I wanna see more stuff where you blow up, when are you getting bigger?”
and 3) “I miss you cumming and squirting, I’m sick of belly stuff!”
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There’s no real solution to the problem. I know I can’t please everyone but that doesn’t mean I can’t try to please as many of you as I can! ♥️
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Now I’ve finally received the right diagnosis and am getting back on my feet, making new content, I’ve got some big decisions to make and I can’t make them alone. I’ve lost a lot of weight. I want (and am trying) to regain that, plus some! But feedback is split directly between “Wow! You’re so much hotter thin!” And “I miss your huge gut! why did you lose weight?” I’m trying to rediscover my own love for my kinks and concentrate on the videos and themes I enjoy making the most.
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Can I be really honest and talk to you as a person, not as a belly model for a moment? I’m finding everything I’ve done for the past few years triggering. Believe me, I do NOT say that lightly. It’s very hard to be honest about this. The stuff I went through with my health isn’t something I’d wish on my worst enemy.
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Over the past couple of years I’ve been through a lot privately too, some I’ve talked about and some I haven’t, but they’ve changed me in SO many ways. I’m ready for things I never was before. And I want to try all kinds of new things! ❤️🔥 I’ll always make belly/wg content too but I don’t want to be bound by that. Doing new things keeps everything fresh, for all of us! 😘 I want to make a lot more masturbation/orgasm videos in the future, for example, and try things like domination, findom, glasses etc.
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Even before my break I was done with being Gurgle Goddess. I’m utterly sick of the hot, itchy wigs, over the top make-up and people thinking I was the same as the character I played. I’ve been starting again, rebranding as Dinner After Darq, just performing as myself. It\s made me feel a lot more positive about my work and the future, as scary as starting again is!
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So I’m at a crossroads. I wanna do the right thing by everyone, including me. I know I can’t please everyone but right now i’m worried I can’t please anyone! 😅 I am gaining and I will get back to my previous size but it took years to get that big and it’s going to take a while to grow as big as I want again.
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If you only want to see me at my biggest or as GG I don’t want to make you unhappy with new thinner content you don’t wanna see. Likewise if you’re excited about my new journey and want to get to know me better (and on a more personal level) I don’t want to keep posting old stuff when I’m excited about making new content every week. And if you’re only here for bellies I don't want to saturate your feed with all kinds of kinks i wanna try out, but if you prefer a bit of variety i don't want to bore you with tummy stuff every day either!
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Here are the options I’m weighing up (pun intended)
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Option 1: This OF remains as an archive of GG content (with old vids and galleries added once or twice a month) and open a second OF for all my new, 18+ content going forward, both belly and non-belly content.
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Option 2: This becomes my belly OF; the GG archive remains and I’ll post all my new 18+ belly/wg stuff here too. My second OF will be for non-belly kinks, vids and pics.
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Option 3: This OF remains as a GG archive, I run a new belly/wg 18+ OF as Dinner After Darq and I make all other dirty content available as PPV on a third OF.
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Ultimately I know I have to make the decision but I really want to know what you think. I’m so, so grateful for all your kind support, enthusiasm and encouragement over the years 🥰 I have such big plans now the crohns’ misdiagnosis is behind me and I can work on getting better, bigger and dirtier! 😘💋