Happy April Fool’s Day! To celebrate this day of jokes and japery I’m gonna share with you the most embarrassing (and personal!) confession video I’ve ever made :P after I filmed this it took weeks before I could bring myself to edit it, let alone share 😅 Never before had I procrastinated so hard on posting a video! Never before have I been so ashamed of anything! I’m still procrastinating now, staring at this page and not wanting to explain my greatest shame! It won’t have escaped your notice that I am unapologetic fandom trash. Always have been. I think there’s so much hate, fear and misery in the world that it’s important to find all the joy we can in life, no matter where. Sometimes the small things are the way we can survive while we wait for the big things to anchor us here. My life was once saved by the Homestuck update notifier going off at the right second and four months later I met the love of my life. I am a great advocate for embracing your love for anything that makes you feel alive again, even for a moment. Hold onto that feeling 🩵

However… I’m not proud of all my fandoms 😅 I’ve had obsessions and hyperfixations all my life but for the last 4 and a half years my life has been RUINED by a certain Doctor Who spin-off my otherwise wonderful girlfriend made me watch! 😂 I used to bounce around from obsession to obsession, I have NEVER had one hyperfixation last for so long - nor have I ever had such a horrendously powerful crush on a fictional character before 😑😑😑

You can see him all over my walls, as ashamed as I am about my Jack Harkness crush (ugh I hate myself) it’s not going anywhere! However, there’s a deeply personal and shameful belly-fetish element that goes way back, years before I watched the show, years before my sexuality changed, years before my ridiculous crush, which makes the whole thing weirder and even more uncomfortable! Back in the summer of 2013 I had a deeply fetishy dream involving Captain Jack Harkness and 8 Oranges… This vid is just a bit of fun, there’s no need to watch it if you’re just here for the bellies and gas, but if you want to know a little more about my life away from the community and have a laugh at my expense then I hope you’ll join me in celebrating the dream that’s haunted me for the past 13 years! Eat an orange in my honour today. And while you’re at it, why not eat 7 more?? 😇😂 and enjoy the follow-up video later! 😇😅