Hey everyone, did you see I posted a poem today? That’s cool right?! I’ve been getting fed up with being a successful boy failure and want to start putting more effort into things.

I just recorded a massive 20 minute priest confession audio i’ve been putting off for months and I edited a 10 minute fast paced ASMR video into a 1 minute _viral* format (it didn’t work, people just want me to talk which is good and bad 😭) ___I’ve been successful not binging on sweets for 3 whole days and i’ve been working out 3 times as long *ish for 2 weeks.

I’ve been doing great in my improv class.

And yet I endlessly feel behind.

I feel the pressure of past success with everything I do and I know I gotta do more and better to satisfy the people who support me.

I want you to root for me and support me but I also want you to take care of yourself and also not lean on me in ways that are bad for you (i.e you still have to meet people irl even if it’s nerve wracking to put yourself out there)

I have recently realized that at least most to the time I need to commit to what i’m good at and if I must diverge, at least weave it into my strengths. I can create amazing art and be philosophical while also being provocative.

I am a new me everytime I wake up, some weeks I want to consume the world and sometimes I want to be at peace with it.

I don’t expect an easy answer but I hope some of you appreciate seeing my depths and my dick.