It's honestly a little embarrassing to admit to myself, and I really didn't want to face this truth until now, but... here it is. 😔 My professional videos, unfortunately, aren't paying for themselves. They don't bring in much income at all 🙈🥹

I think, to a large extent, my production and those gorgeous videos we filmed with the team were kind of a vanity project for me, Vlad (the cameraman), and Maxim (the producer). We wanted to show everyone that we could create cool, high-quality content – a little bit of Hollywood in the porn world, you know? ✨

But honestly, the filming was incredibly expensive and took several days. I'm not even talking about big projects like Chainsaw Man, Deadpool, or Squid Game. Even something "smaller," like my last Genshin videos or Zelda or Detroit.. that every costume alone cost at least $200. Then there's the team's work and a shooting day, which is about $500 (minimum). 💸

Plus, there's the expensive equipment and even the cost of the apartment I still rent in Siberia – over $1000 a month! And it's not because I want to live in a big place; I'd be fine in a one-room apartment. But I needed a separate room for props and costumes, and another for filming. 🎬

If we're talking about the office... I'm almost afraid to remember how much that all cost... Rent was around $1500 per month, and internet, electricity, and other communications came to another $1000. Plus, I bought furniture. All these years, I've literally invested all the money I earn back into production.

Do I regret it? Of course not! ❤️ I truly love what I do, and I know that many of you found me because of my professional videos and cosplays. 🥰 I just want you to understand that I could make more money, and save more money, by simply filming a video on my phone on my bed.

So, when I'm selling these huge projects where I put my effort, money, and soul, sacrificing some of my own needs (like buying my own apartment 🥺), and I see people pirating my content, dumping it on forums... I just want to cry. 😭