I couldn't bring myself to write this message for a long time. My fingers hovered over the keyboard every time I tried to start.

But if I don't say anything now, I'll just disappear. And I don't want to disappear.

The last few days have knocked the wind out of me.

My tattoo machine... the one that was almost like a friend to me, like a partner... just broke down and no longer works.

Without warning, without a single hint that something was wrong. Yesterday it worked perfectly, and today — silence. No vibration, no light. As if the voice had been ripped from throat.

I sat over it, took it apart, cleaned it, hoping that the problem was minor.

But the deeper I looked, the more I felt something very personal tightening inside me. Because I grew up with it.

Every stroke, every line, every story on someone's skin — we did it all together.
Yes, some might say, “Well, if it broke, just buy a new one.”

But it wasn't just a tool.

It was my way of communicating with the world. My way of making people feel beautiful, strong, and unique. Through the work I did with love.

Right now, I'm trying to hang on, but without a decent computer, I can't continue to work at the level I consider acceptable. I feel like an artist who has had his hands cut off.

And the worst thing is the feeling that everything I've created here, all the warmth I've tried to give to people... may gradually fade away.

Professional replacement costs about $1200

For me right now, that's as insurmountable as a wall I crashed into at full speed.

I'm not asking for the impossible. And I feel incredibly awkward writing this. I never thought I'd find myself in a situation where I had to ask for help.

But if someone responds... even with the smallest amount...

You won't just be helping me buy equipment.

You'll be giving me back my voice. The opportunity to continue doing what I love with all my heart. The opportunity to remain myself 💌

I really want to come back.

I want to feel alive again when I see the finished work.

I want to feel again that what I'm doing is worthwhile.

Thank you to everyone who read to the end.

And if you decide to support me, I will definitely repay you with something special. From the bottom of my heart.

Really ❤️