I understand it can be frustrating when a creator doesn’t meêt expectations, last year on my vip page I got very very sick and as a result wasn’t able to post as much as I thought I could, because of this I was even offering refunds back then and went through every subscriber individually. It was a lot of work to do but I did it even though I was literally bedridden. I don’t what any of you couple of people are getting at by saying “I’m sucking people into money” by charging for the work I do. I would never do that, I really care about my subscribers in a way that you probably won’t get from a lot of other creators on here. It was hurtful to hear that from some people. I’m not sure if they just didn’t know what was going on with me at the time or didn’t get the whole memo about the refunds… but just so you know I could give a fuck less about money to be honest but I’m responsible for taking care of certain people I care about and I have no choice, I can’t work for countless hours and hours and hours on end for free. I wish I could live without money if I’m being real haha.. I understand that there are people following me who could care less and just want to get off, I always understood that.. but there are some people who actually care about me on here too, and most of them are not the ones who want to see me for free, they actually respect me and my body. I want to put it out there as well that I POST ALL THE TIME ON MY VIP PAGE LIKE ALMOST EVERYDAY I SPEND COUNTLESS HOURS REPLYING TO EVERYONE. I’m tired. I take care of so many people. I have so many responsibilities. I was SICK AND DYING LAST YEAR like are you fucking kidding me!?? Do some people think I’m super human or something, just because last year when I first went nude I only posted once a week I got horribly sick (I WAS LITERALLY DYING) it doesn’t mean I don’t post all the time now, because I do. I POST ALL THE TIME on my vip page, I reply ALL THE TIME. It’s actually exhausting. A “normal” job would have been so much eaiser. Im only one person after all so just please please have some compassion before I crack. Im in debt. Im trying to take care of my family. I want to make a change in the world but I’m basically useless because I can’t even help my fucking self… I can’t do anything. I don’t even have time to do the things I love like my music. I’m always burnt out. I wish I could just have a normal simple life with a little family. I can never live that dream because I’ll live with constant guilt that I never did enough for the world… just give me a break please. That was last year and I’m sorry I didn’t post enough for your expectations back then but I was seriously trying my best while dealing with so much. I don’t want my naked pictures all over the internet for just anyone to see, I don’t want someone to be able to pay 5 bucks to see my most intimate parts, hell I don’t even want to show them for 35 but it’s all I can do right now, I have to take care of my siblings, the only family I’ve ever had. Im bisexual and I used to love taking pics and recreating hentai pics and such, but people are so horrible to me for what I do that it sucks every ounce of enjoyment out of it. I don’t even want to get out of bed most days, but I have to try my best keep going just like everyone else. Working normal jobs just don’t make enough, not to mention and taking pics is something I once enjoyed. I hope that I can enjoy it again… I know there will always be those bitter people but I at least hope there are some people who truly care about me, and can see that. These are my real feelings. Love you guys who have been patient with me, im really not gonna cheat you guys like a lot of onlyfans girls, the conversations and connections I build are genuine. That’s all… thank you for listening.