Post from Natures Lil Nymph · January 7, 2025

(being bipolar feels like.....)

"I have to be alone to know I'm real"

Dying on the inside
Walking around seeming normal
Literally using every bit of energy of soul left
Just to walk
Am I even walking
So disconnected
So grateful to leave this body
Floating above and below
This darkness starts to be my only friend
She's always been there
She holds me
Protects me
Numb is my savior and my heroine

The body looks good
Used a mirror today
If any one saw inside they would know
But they never will
My will is strong
She's a beast
She's a monster
She's my mother
She's me
The better me
The strong one
She puts me away from I'm....
Being me
A pathetic failure
Someone who been so used up
There's nothing left but shame

At least when I'm not myself
I am wanted