So. You know how mommy needs big toys inside her to cum? (That plus a jack hammer on my clit ofcourse) well because i can handle anything with this vibrator on my clit, sometimes i do things that are a little bit damaging…
For example, a few years ago i decided go dp myself on a video call with a hookup. All fine and dandy but i really hadn't had more than a finger up my ass before and had no real knowledge about how my asshole worked. So i jumped on a dildo with no lube (it was the same size as this, maybe a little bigger) and rammed another inside my cunt at the same time. It was ALOT. But i breathed through it and soon it felt good enough to bounce. I think i got about 3 or 4 bounces in before i came hard, pushing the dildo out of my ass with alot of force….. no nothing gross happened, well, i “pro lappşēd” internal haemorrhoids i didnt know i had, and ruined my asshole. A few doctors trips and fingers later and i was told it would only be cosmetic as long as i refrained from anal or straining. (That story is up somewhere under the story time tab if you care to look)
Anyyyyyway.
I dont like being told what to do. And i do enjoy the physical challenge of anal especially with my injury. But ive been careful to only dabble, work my way up slowly, lots of lube, just the tip, go slow, etc etc and its been a lovely experience every time since.

Tonight however i was in a horny rage. My cunt couldnt be filled enough. My oiled fingers made their way to my asshole and only a few moments later i decided two fingers werent enough. I needed to be rammed. Fucked raw. used, ruined. So i took my dildo and i pressed the head against my ass. This sent me wild and i felt my asshole relax a little. “Im just a loose whore i can handle any cock” i tell myself as i press my weight onto the dildo, which i have braced against my heel. As you can imagine, it hūrtş, i tense up, i think im never going to recover, and as i go to ease off, it pops past the next sphincter and i cum. Which makes the tensing worse. And i panic to remove it. Laying there i think about what i just did to myself. How silly it was to do something so reckless, how im not sure if i would be ok if my asshole got any worse, any uglier. Do i really want two ruined holes?
Yes i do. So i did it again. And again.
And as expected my asshole is paying for it. It falling out. Its red/purple. Hot. Ouchy!
So hot. I want to show you. But only those of you who really want to see it. Who want to eat it, stick their tongue inside me to soothe me, who see the ruined and ugly as beautiful and sexy. So, if this is you, i ask that you pay to see it.
Tip me $10 if you are a devoted lover and i will send em your way
Enjoy xox