I’m finally out of my burnout eraaaa!!!😮💨
Sooooooo much has happened in the past year and if you
want the tea… I’m about to spill it. Ok so first of all I had a hormonal health
issue I had been dealing with since 2021 honesty, it started to worsen in 2024 and got really bad (like affecting quality of life bad)in 2025 basically. Between those years I had a lot of changes in my health insurance, from not being
legally dependent on my parents' coverage anymore to just having state insurance due to my line of work, and then getting married and becoming dependent on my husband's coverage… so
yeah a ton of changes. Between all that there were doctors who didn’t take me seriously due to race and gender bias, plenty of misdiagnosis, gaslighting, and everyday life stressors in general, and navigating the American healthcare system really sucks in general so you can only begin to slightly fathom the albatross that has been around my neck for the past
few years. 😔
There obviously was a point in time where this very platform was my main bread and butter, but I got lucky and was able to be poached by other adult production companies and able to work through them. I also started streaming and working in more avenues that were a bit
more social. I run all of my pages by myself and content creation gets very lonely.
So when my health was taking a turn for the worse I decided to put my efforts and limited energy towards things that mattered the most to me, and that was living in the moment, connecting with others, and spending quality time with my friends. There were also a lot of things that I needed to accept as well, such
as the true condition of my health and the fact that the only way to heal was to get a highly invasive surgery on my reproductive organs. I’ve never had surgery before in my life - before this I actively tried to avoid hospitals - so the thought of going under scared the shitttt out of me.
Also mind you while all of this was going on I was also in my first year of marriage - which if you have ever been married the first year is so fucking hard... now imagine your wife having a chronic illness on top of that. It was really stressful which is crazy to say because my husband and I dated consistently no break ups ever for EIGHT YEARS before we got rings… marriage has definitely tested the fuck out of us 😂but also we were crazy and opened up our marriage like immediately but ANYWAY yeah alot has been happening for me and I’m still actively going through it and honestly I expect to be going through it until 2029 deadass and don’t ask me how I know this (the short answer is astrology lol).
In the midst of all that I did miss writing. A lot of you messaged me, reaching out to check in and let me know that you love reading my blog posts. To be honest I have to write these things in the headspace that no one will ever read it. That’s the only way I can get my honest truth out because I am a very private and introspective person in general (especially when it comes to my
personal affairs) which is so funny because I feel like my content creation ‘persona’ doesn’t really show that.
As I write this today, I am three weeks post operation, almost half way through my eight week recovery and I finally have just enough core strength to sit up in a computa chair! So you know
what that means… I can edit my nasty videos and post. I have such a nasty vault of videos. 😈
I am excited to go through them to edit and share with you all. Although I haven’t been posting much I have still been doing sexy things with my friends and I can't wait to reminisce and write
about it all.
Anyway enjoy some chronically ill selfies and I’ll post some hot shit later on in the week I’m also going to try to reply to all 367 messages in my inbox on this account alone 😵💫… until next time gooners😘
PS its not too late to send me recovery gifts and flowers!!❤️🩹💐