three fully wholesome nature videos and a few stills. Also a huge thank you - I’m extremely grateful to everyone here - be it a month or a year. This NSFW art experience is a big contradiction. A blessing/curse (for want of a better word), fun/angst inducing, ego boost/self-loathing with a big side of insecurity. Needing subscribers but wanting to stay safe/private and true too. I’ve been extremely honest on this strange trip - turned a lot of guys off. Ops. Made genuine friends and had a few solid arguments. It’s been the best and worst of me. Eye-opening in positive ways and at times sad-heartbreaking-jaded ways. People come and go - which can be hard/hurt for a sensitive artist.
My art is a combo of self reflection/selfish navel gazing on one side and seeing the big picture/human condition/ world chaos etc on the other. In one moment I’m in tears of frustration/heartache for myself and in the next feeling guilty when I remember all the real world issues. I’m a non-event, another human wanting more than I need.
Some weeks are good and others I hold on by a thread… such as now. In mid July I’ve been here four years - it’s always one day at a time… unsure where it goes from here. I’m tired-love 💙💘