If you ever wondered what I feel and think when the camera is running...😏
The red light comes on. I take a breath. It’s quiet, only a couple of people behind it watching silently. When my partner walks in, I feel shy (yeah you've seen it right, I can be shy😆).
Then I start to move, slow, careful. And when he and I get into a process step by step, I forget about everything else. As if there's only two of us. It’s strange, but it feels good — like I’m finally free to just be.🥰

I don’t think about who will watch it. I just think about how it feels right now — the heat, the touch, the sound of my breathing.🥵

When the record stops, I laugh a little. My heart’s still racing. And this when I get anxious if every frame of video is perfect... 🥰

I know that my fans are the best and writing all of it feels weird to me... jlmk if you like it, maybe I'll write down some crazy stories🤭