I'm ok a lot of pain recently

This is a moment this morning where it's about a 1-2 out of 10 so I can do silly things like this

Honestly my body has been through the wars for the last week and a bit, but re-tearing my fissure quite badly was the worse thing to happen while fighting an infection down below and soon it'll be the red queen 🥲

SSOOOO I can't really make content at the moment 😔 which is really bad as I'm going to Australia next month for my 39th birthday and I'm unable to cover my bills, so I may need to cancel and lose £1,000

Just know things will always get better! We go through these experiences to pay the price for the better times, or at least I see it that way. It reminds me to slow down and appreciate all the small things 💜☺️ just being alive and knowing many wonderful people is enough. Shit happens!