It started innocently. In childhood I used to type “fat women” into Google Images or stuff my clothes to look bigger, and wonder what it felt like to be fatter. Then I began to discover how good it made me feel to be humiliated for being fat, even though I wasn’t actually fat just a bit chubby at the time.

At 16 I was overweight, around 76 kg at 165 cm. My mom wanted me to lose weight, so she took me to a dietitian and I managed to get down to about 68 kg. At 18 I started dieting heavily and developed an eating disorder, dropping to 55 kg.

When I started university, things began to change again. I was 65, then 70, and at 21 I was 80 kg, which brought back thoughts about my fetish. I felt really good seeing myself gain weight and noticing a small belly, but I was also afraid of gaining too much, so when I reached 92 kg, I decided to lose some weight.

At 23 I got back down to 85 kg and looked pretty okay again. But then suddenly all my restraints disappeared. The biggest turning point was moving to a new city after graduation in 2025. I started posting online and could literally feel myself expanding, going from 85 kg to 108 kg now. From a small belly I turned into fat slob with a big gut.

All of it just to get wet, and I’m constantly horny😩😩