edit i wanted to get the videos uploaded first but my internet is so slow since we moved and it took sooo long but i have a doctor appointment in the morning so i will see you all on chewsday with a video and some new photos okk love u bye

just figured out i actually have enough videos (and photos of course) to take 3 weeks off and not fall behind on either niche sooooooooo i will be doing that i think. I never really get burned out from work but i have been very burned out from my medical stuff this year :( i don't want to go into too much detail but it's been hard to keep up on work when living takes so much out of me :/ i think the break will be good for me though, and i am very very slowly attending to messages. i just wanted to take the proper space to grieve/mourn/etc what i need to do for this diagnosis.

I know I've been slacking off a lot this year in the advertising department, a lot of that is just because it's very hard to feel hot and sexy and fresh and fun when I'm arguing with insurance for 4 hours a day lol. I really really hope the break is what I need to reignite all my passions, for every part of my life, because I miss having them. The system unfortunately is built to break our spirits, so we stop calling, stop fighting, stop going to appointments and using the insurance we pay for. Can't let that happen >:( Spite will keep me going >:(

anyways posts and stuff will probably resume tomorrow, I'm working on scheduling tonight a bit, we'll see how much I get done but I have it all planned out. thanks for sticking around if you decide to do so, it shouldn't be too much different than usual except more free solo stuff and a bit less responsiveness :)