I still have so many outfits from when I was fit - some from 80+ pounds ago. I can't bring myself to throw them away. They sit tucked in the back of my closet, waiting for an aspirational day I know will never come. 🥲

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For you, I'm trying them on anyway. 17 different outfits. Matching poses against 30 old photos. Sharing the memories and stories behind them. All back from when I was youthful and firm. This is nearly half an hour of trying on old clothing. Multiple 4K camera angles. Embarrassing stories. Jiggling. The works.

Watch me struggle as the fabric fights every inch. Seams stretch and stitches pop around my fat thighs and 2XL waist. What used to slide on effortlessly now digs into my skin, leaving red marks, failing to flatter. My soft belly, thighs, ass and breasts spill out everywhere. Getting dressed in these same clothes never felt so overwhelming. 🥵