I know a lot of people have been curious about how my relationship really works... About how a guy convinced a normal, fit, gym-going girl into becoming CouchQueen. Well, this video is all about that- how I started, how it feels, and what it's really like to be loved and praised for something most girls would never choose to do to themselves.

At first, I honestly didn't suspect a thing. I was dieting, pushing myself at the gym- trying my best to be what I thought he wanted. I didn't know that what he was really admiring were the parts of me that always seemed to stay soft. My belly, my thighs, my arms.. Everything I was trying to firm up, he was secretly worshiping. When he finally came out and told me what he wanted, I was in disbelief. But also** flattered.** And, eventually, I came to want it for myself.

It turned me on to be desired and praised for being lazy. For indulging. And it didn't take long for that spark to grow into something bigger- an introduction to and conversation about feedism. We could combine my love of food and his love of fat. My laziness and his need to pamper. My submissive side and his dominance. It wasn't just about feeding, but giving in. Letting go.

Now, I'm soft. Slow. And needy. But that's part of what turns me on so much- knowing that I've become a woman who lives for indulgence, with a partner that lives for providing it.