Hihi unfortunately this model may really not work and I will have to return to the previous PPV one. I have hobbies and goals I'd love to pursue and the previous one got me the closest to them and made them feel more accessible/reachable. This model is just not working for me. I hope you will understand and continue to support me. I have taken all your advice though on my mental stuff and will continue to chase what I want in this life. Thank you for working with me even if I can't decide on things immediately... I am trying my best really.