My feedism story š½š
(I really hope this is edited okay bc Iām absolutely baked outta my mind)
Ive been into feedism all my life. I knew very early on that I wanted to be fat and was fascinated by gaining weight and getting larger, though my weight fluctuated because I felt inevitable pressure from the beauty standards of society.
I was around 200 pounds after graduating high school at 18. I moved out of my momās and lost weight due to being broke, but also still feeling the pressure to be thin.
At this point I had created profiles on Fantasy Feeder, Curvage, and Tumblr, looking at fat women and feedees with jealousy. I just wanted to live my fat truth like they were.
I began working at a department store that had mirrors everywhere. Occasionally Iād walk past one, stick my small belly out, and wish I didnāt care what people thought of me.
My family was so proud of how small I was, but all I could think about was gaining weight. I was 150 pounds, my smallest weight ever. My waist was so small that I could wear skirts from the youth section.
I left the department store job and got another at a restaurant. At this point Iām still on Fantasy Feeder, Curvage, and Tumblr, posting here and there with my small starter belly. Working at the restaurant allowed me to give in a little. I gained a few pounds, up to 165 and felt so hot. It was enough to still fit into society but it was also noticeable (since Iām not that tall).
Throughout the next couple of years, I was so eager to meet a feeder and put on weight, and I did just that. We met on Tumblr, and I gained up to 190 pounds as our relationship progressed. I ended up moving in with them at 24, and I gained 60 pounds in the year we lived together.
I was out of the feedism scene during that period, but I came back fatter than ever. I was finally over 200 pounds, 250 at this point. My family was so concerned when I moved back home. I was 25, and they kept asking why I had gained so much weight and whether I was okay.
My weight stayed there for a minute but my new roommate was a feedee too. I eventually got up to 275. It was a lot. I was only 25 and so heavy. I had completely transformed my tiny little body with a small frame to one covered in stretch marks and rolls.
I havenāt had a true feeder since then, but I am currently fatter than ever. We all know I lost weight for my sisterās wedding when I was 28 or 29. I got back down to 220, but I was miserable. I didnāt feel pretty anymore or comfortable in my own skin.
As soon as the wedding ended, I started eating again. Like I said, I have no feeder, but the comeback weight packed on. I got back to 270, but told myself I needed a feeder before I gained any more weight.
Being massive is so hot, and food is so good, I couldnāt stick to that. Iām currently my heaviest weight at 291. Iām still thinking about having a feeder completely transform my body with me all over again. I want to be as big an SSBBW so badly. I canāt wait for my story to continue š„ŗ