so I've been more consistent in the gym once again, and it feels SO good. I struggled to maintain consistency (or going at all honestly) last year and the start of this year. I lifted at home sometimes but only once in a while and mostly just to feel good; I love doing deadlifts when I have big emotions to work through (especially negative ones). I finally convinced myself to get back into the habit of going to the gym despite the anxiousness I always feel- I just kept telling myself that I can do hard things and I can still do things that are good for me even when I am nervous. The self talk definitely helps, as goofy as it may feel in the moment while I am talking to myself in the car >.< ANYWAY, here's a couple of pics of me flexing my newly visible muscles (mostly my back muscles, but still!!) ((I wonder if I'll ever stop using parentheses all the time lol)