i've been putting off logging on and posting an update, bc im embarrassed, and i'm terrified of disappointing anyone. i am chronically ill, and normally i'm able to manage it, but i think i pushed myself too hard trying to meet the e-girling standards i had set for myself. i'm sorry i made things overly complicated and set you up with expectations i wasnt able to fulfill; i am still learning my limits as a disabled person.
i'm feeling better and am able to eat big meals again, but i still have a lot of appointments in the coming months to help me feel the best i possibly can. i so wish i could tell you that i'm totally healed and it's smooth sailing from here, but unfortunately this is something i will be contending with for the rest of my life.
for now, i think im gonna transition back to the setup i had on here pre-weekly streams, just one page. i'm not sure what my long term plan is.
despite all the uncertainty, the one thing i'm certain of is that i love being fat and still want to get fatter. here are some pictures i took today to confirm that i'm still wide.