I've missed you. That's most of what I have to say. I've missed sharing things with you, I missed making you happy. I missed feeling like I was worthy of your time and praise.

I don't know why I thought I could just, make some strange magnum opus and not hurt myself through perfectionism and isolation until it was finished. I thought I could be faster, I thought I could make people wonder how I did it. I thought I could put my nose to the grindstone and get it done in the same amount of time it took to make an image set even though it's a hundred times more complicated. I thought I could do it, and I kept thinking it until it was months later.

I just wanted to make something amazing for you that changes your perspective on what you think is possible. I think all artists want that. But then shame and panic and all of the other feelings of inadequacy glomed onto me more and more the longer it went on.

So, I'm back. For you all first, the ones who, for some reason, stuck with me and paid me when I was basically gone and giving nothing in return. I fucking love you, and I don't mean that in a parasitic parasocial "I think you're so special, now give me more money" sort of way, I mean it in a "You made me feel valuable even when I wasn't churning out content" sort of way. It kinda changes how I think about myself positively, and that means a lot.

So for you all, I wanted to show you how much I've grown since I started by remastering my first real paid post, and giving it to my subscribers. I love you, and want to squish all of you into all of me 🥰

And yes, the big three minute long mixed media animation is coming out in the next week or so if all goes as planned. So get ready for Bootycall, y'all 😈

With more love than I thought I could fit in my body,
Ash ❤️

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